So here I am, it is at the beginning of March in 2008. I have held true to this idea that I’m going to just workout and train throughout the year, no periodization, no “A” races, etc. My idea was to just drop in a race when I felt like it.

That brings me to next weekend. Next weekend I am going to run my first ultra run! It is a 60k run in the Land between the Lakes area of Western Kentucky. I am pretty excited about this race, but I am getting an enormous dose of fear.

The longest run that I’ve had since the Ironman last September has been the Rock-N-Roll Marathon in Arizona. It was a good day to experience what it would be like on my feet for a very long time, as I coached all the athletes from Kentucky to the finish line. But to be honest, I didn’t feel like I was in great shape at that race and I am not in better shape now.

The truth is that I have less long runs than a person normally puts in getting ready for a marathon. I ran 15.5 miles last weekend and then this weekend I ran 13.5 yesterday and 19.4 today. Last night a friend of Nikki’s asked her “Is that his taper”?

The thing with this style of training and racing is that it doesn’t have a taper period. And I’m getting nervous enough about knowing if I can finish this distance that I wanted to put in a double long weekend to see what would happen. It didn’t go super well. I am hurting pretty bad right now. I can move (and actually jogged a half mile with a client after) but by the end of today’s run, I was hurting enough that I started having some second thoughts.

Fear. Sometimes we have fear about what is about to happen. I am thinking that at times it might be wise to have a little dose of fear before we get ourselves into a situation like this.

I’ll let you know how it goes. I went and bought a digital voice recorder and a lapel mic, I plan on doing some updates during the run. I’ll share them with you if there is anything interesting, funny or ridiculous.